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11:06pm 27/06/2004
mood: anxious
she went fiching with her beloved and wes, it was interesting. She had mucho fun.... she loves spending time with her beloved. Tomorrow will consist of similar plans, and playing in the rain YEAH BUDDY!!! hmmm shes in love!

(1 Stars Burn Out | Whisper to Them)

Oh my god, they killed Kenny! YOU BASTERDS!   
11:29pm 26/06/2004
mood: lonely
Time keeps moveing one by one the minutes pass and yet she feels like shes gotten nowhere and she's experiencing nothing and she's hurting everyone with her pointless exsistance. She wished she knew what was going on... but again she remains uninformed, and hurts herself to set the records straight a visionary of the future while liveing in the past, not even paying attion to the moment, and losing train of thought by the second. This is the only peice of domeone that has ever struck her as anything other than a curtasy kiss, This was her last chance to make everything right, her friend, her habits, and family.... not thing time things seem to be slipping throught the cracks faster than the splitting of mercury as it hits the kiten tile when your temperture is too high to measure anything on anone and this is grounded on the ground that noone can stand one. She is an angel, her hair is the death of you and her eyes cut right through you, like that of the sharpest dagger in to the heart of the weak. Tough her not and hold your breath this recycled air.... is tainted

(Whisper to Them)

Check it out   
07:47pm 26/06/2004
mood: drained
Stole it from gabe and then filled it out for me : D thanks gabe lol

.x. [my name is]: Brittney Lauren
.x. [in the morning i am]: these eyes have not seen morning in about a month
.x. [all i need is]:Cody Blake
.x. [love]: hmmm... cody?
.x. [im afraid of]: there is nothign to fear but fear it self
.x. [i dream about]: very odd things
- Y E S . O R . N O -
.x. [you keep a diary]: yeah
.x. [you like to cook]: yep
.x. [you have a secret you have not shared with anyone]: um, not anymore, i believe i have reabled most everything to my love if not anyone else
.x. [you fold your underwear]: haha nope
.x. [you talk in your sleep}: no i whine sometimes, but i dont ever talk i dont think
.x. [you set your watch a few minutes ahead]: nope
.x. [you believe in love]: i do
- D O -
.x. [you wish you could live somewhere else]: Sometimes, but home is where the heart is, and right now my heart is right here in Dawson County
.x. [you think about suicide]: not anymore, after tons of therapy and 2 mental hospitals : /
.x. [others find you attractive]: um.... maybe, i know or atleast cody say he thinks i am
.x. [you want more piercings]: uh huh
.x. [you want more tattoos]: hmmm... in a few years not now though
.x. [you drink]: not anymore alcohal leads to baaaaaaad things
.x. [you do drugs]: not any more!
.x. [you like cleaning]: yeah ocd 'ell do that to you
.x. [you like roller coasters]: uh huh
.x. [you write in cursive or print]: both/and
.x. [you carry a donor card]: a what? i guess that means no

- H A V E . Y O U . E V E R -
.x. [been in love]: yes, as of this moment
.x. [cried when someone died]: my dad.... but thats it
.x. [lied]: un fortunately, but only to save my ass or someone elses
.x. [fallen for your best friend]: hmmm... no, ive fallen for someone thats become my best friend
.x. [been rejected]: many of times
.x. [rejected someone]: yeah im sure i have
.x. [used someone]: not conciously
.x. [been cheated on] many of times
.x. [done something you regret]: man man MANY of times
-N U M B E R-
.x. [of times i have had my heart broken]: mmm.... 1... 2....3.... yeah 3
.x. [of hearts i have broken]: i guess i broke gabes... : (
.x. [of guys i have kissed]: like 8 or 9
.x. [of girls i have kissed]: mmm...4 i believe
.x. [of continents i have lived in]: only one
.x. [of close friends]: one
.x. [of cd's that i own]: i have no clue
.x. [of scars on my body]: well... uh... way to many to count
.x. [of things in my past that i regret]: 25,987,638,294,876 and 1/2
put an X next to the things you've done:
(x) been drunk.
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex.
(x) kissed a member of the same sex.
(x) kissed your best guy friend- Cody Blake
() crashed a friend's car.
() been to japan.
() rode in a taxi.
(x) been in love.
(x) had sex.
(x) been dumped.
(x) shoplifted.
(x) snuck out of my parent's house.
() been caught masturbating.
(x) pissed on myself.
() been arrested.
() had a crush on a teacher.
() celebrated mardi-gras in new york.() been to europe.
(x) skipped school
- F I R S T S -
First job: notta
First pet: Beauty my puppy
First piercing/tattoo: ears
First credit card: notta
First love: well there were tons of times i thought i was in love, but my first true love was Cody, my first severe attraction was Gabe
First enemy: Carman
First big trip: Um... either flordia or South Carolina
- L A S T S -
Last car ride: Home from hiltonhead
Last kiss: Cody Blake
Last movie watched: Loney Tunes Back in action : P
Last beverage drank: Crystal Light
Last food consumed: Krystals ehhhhhh YUCK made me sooo sick
Last phone call: Cody blake
Last time showered: about an hour ago
Last CD played: MockOrange
Last annoyance: My cousin hannah me and Phillip are going to murder her, but shhhh dont tell
Last soda drank: notta.. well i guess it was that demented coke i tried to fix up and it ended up tasteing like some sick alcohal beverage
Last ice cream eaten: homemade vanilla blue bell
Last time scolded: .... i dunno the last times i talked to Cody
Last shirt worn: Um this golden yelllow wife beater that im wearing right now
Last website visited: livejournal
Last person(s) Visited? um... i guess... uh... well...hmmm i have no clue accually

(Whisper to Them)

Please do this, honestly please please :*C   
06:01pm 21/06/2004
  I stole this from a young lady out of state... there are quite a few odd questions... answer them anyways... :-D
What Would You do if...
I cried:
I died:
I asked you to help:
I stole something:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got in a fight and you were there:
I got dumped:
I pissed you off:
I did something that you could never forgive me for:

What Do You Think Of My...
Choice of music:

Would You...
Be my friend:
Tell me the truth no matter what:
Lie to make me feel better:
Spread rumors about me:
Keep a secret if I told you one:
Loan me some cash:
Hold my hand:
Take a bullet for me:
Keep in touch:
Try and solve my problems:
Love me:
Ditch me:
Use me:
Rape me:
Beat me up:

these are some odd questions....do it anyway. i love you.

(Whisper to Them)

My Wonderwall...   
12:22am 19/06/2004
mood: loved

hmmm... im in a awesomely good mood despite the fact that jake has called me multiple times and i dont particurally want to have contact with him, i think he likes me, and im not up for grabs, im taken... for now... and forever, so it sucks to be him. As far as being taken, im taken by this cutie, and been swept off of my feet and carried away because he is my jedi knight and he has come to save me and capture me from the darkside, before we become romeo and juliet and they start makeing books about us and a tragic ending to a beautiful love story and we go down into history. Wow i miss that kid, he went to bed about an hour and a half ago because i made him because he wasnt makeing any since, he was haveing a lack of sleep and when he has lack of sleep... he talks nonsense ... but i suppose its cute

  So anyways, maybe kerri is comeing over tomorrow, who know, ppl these days act like they really wanna hang out and stuff and then we finally figure something to do out and stuff, and then here that come ditching out on me, "my parnets said no they are being gay", or "i already have plans sorry"  :( yeah yeah yeah whatever, its fine, i can take an honest no i dont wanna chill, i mean, im not like suicidal, or anything like that.... : / well at least not anymore, so i can handle the truth. and i can always find someone else to hang out with... maybe or maybe not who knows, who cares, well if you read this and you wanna hang out sometime, call me, or click the thingy that says whisper to them and its all good wwell anyways gotta run chicks and dudes... (um...gay?) I love you guys, and mostly cody ; D... your my wonderwall...

And all the roads that lead you there were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
I don't know how

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me ?
And after all
You're my wonderwall


(1 Stars Burn Out | Whisper to Them)

It's been a while since i could hold my head up high...   
03:47pm 17/06/2004
mood: optimistic
*sigh* today is not going very well, i miss cody lots and lots, i hope he's oh kay i haven't heard form him, and well, umm.... i miss the hell outta that kid, i also miss my buddies...:(... you guys mean the world to me know this, i miss... macy, and tori, and Samanthat the mostest, but i miss alotta other ppl im missin right now. I miss Jake (Keywest), Andrew, Brandon.L., Kelsey .W., i love you kelsey!!!! and i misss leighanna, but mostly Jake,...:C oh well, ill see them again, hopefully soon, maybe not andrew or leighanna, but ill see jake and brandon, maybe Kels.
On to a more recent subject, i think im cashin in for a new hair cut... speaking of hair, im really scared my grandmother (x-dermotoligist) looked at a bump on my head, in my hair, and it could possibly be a skin cancer called, um cndsjiarhfde,gfnri? lol a big word... very scarey, i have to go to the doctor... *sigh* Hope i dont die, i just found out how wonderful life can be, and that not everyone is an asshole! well i love you guys, fill you in more ont he cancer issue when i find out more!

Don't let the world bring you down
Not everyone there is that fucked up and cold
Remember (drawing a blank) and while your'e alive
Experience the warmth before you grow old

(1 Stars Burn Out | Whisper to Them)

Your so like a rose, i wish you could stay here   
08:08pm 09/05/2004
mood: contemplative
They say beauty is on the inside, but what good does it do, all bundled up and packed away, on a dusty self. Noones gunna see, if its all on the inside, its not that much to me, but i know its all youve got. So how are you and your beauty, that you hold it all inside. That someone one day will discover, and hold it in there heart with pride. I hope that they will see you, but we cant see what you hide... so what good is your beauty, when you hold it all inside?

(1 Stars Burn Out | Whisper to Them)

You still have... All of me...   
03:30pm 06/05/2004
mood: loved
So i just got finished veiwing my rateing for my blunt truth thingy on line, the on thing that really got me is that someone gave me a 1(one) drama Queen... What the fuck?? Im so confused!! i dont understand! i didnt think i was really dramatic really, well a little, but everyone else seems to, everyone i know anyways... evidently i dont have very good hair, my guess being because i never wash it, and it is now orange at the top... someone gave me a 3 on my overall atractivness... :*( thats so sad... im only a 3...... oh well... i have noone to impress anymore anyways, from the looks of things, im done with anything that might cause me to need to impress anyone ive already done the impressing and ive already got my life's plan laid out for me, young marriage, poverty and love, a couple kids, a couple dogs, a couple cars and a little house on a hill, were the sun shines in the evening right in on the rug where the dog sleeps... a boy and a girl. A beautiful husband, and even though we will be unbelievably poor and with shitty cars, and the house wont just be litte... it will be a little shack... but the only thing it takes to make a family... is a man a woman, and last but not least love, and tehre will be more than enough love to get us anywhere we need to go!

(Whisper to Them)

I can see yoy in the shadows, are you watching me ... or am i watching you?   
01:22am 02/05/2004
mood: contemplative
Things are often changeing, you find out new things about the ppl you thought you knew the best everyday, you can't hide from everything you'd like, you can't avoid the truth forever and eventually you will hit a wall somewhere. The voice of an endless cry into nothing is just what i need to brake the silence that was deafening my ears! Not that i wanted to ever return from the depts i was at anyways...

On a lighter note, on fri. i hiked amicalola with lupo and for teh first part pete joined us, then gave out and went to the car. that night after dropping pete off at the show, i went with mike and lupo to the beverage store to buy some "beverages". then to ingles to buy some oj and some smokes. hmm then to the show for me. Where me and Victoria almost got caught smokeing but we were slick! Then later in i became a human pillow, as well as Victoria... Church sucks! i hate religion, its gay and its all lies, and lieing is bad in every one of the sectors! I had a nice phone converse today with a person i have be talking to quite often lately. 2 of them accually. Me and Brandon went to Boners and threw rocks in teh lake, and watched the Rockey horror Picture Show. I stayed up much to late tonight. And now its off to sleepy town for britt!

Oh how i hate being so uninformed, and though i yern for the truth i can not bare it, its all down hill from here... just set back and enjoy the ride!

"Toucha Toucha Toucha Touch me me, i wanna be dirty, thrill me chill me fufill me"

"I'm just a sweet transvestite, from .... Transulvania"

Oh! AND CASS! thanks for the apoligy earlier today.. about the whole you know who and everyone flirting and what not... i defiantely forgive you and i forget it!!

(1 Stars Burn Out | Whisper to Them)

I didn't die and I ain't complainin'. I ain't blamin' you   
09:44pm 24/04/2004
mood: sleepy
Today all i did was sleep, i went shopping for a breast holder (aka a bra) and i hated it, everytime i get so sicked out i want to cut off my breasts and commit suicide. I couldnt find anything i liked that fit, cause they all looked cute smaller but the bigger sizes made me sick. my mom was like "well what do you want to do?" and i was like "commit suicide" cause good damn it i do! then i just layed on the floor at the bra store and just layed there cause i want to die or remove my breasts one! And plus im stressing about my beautiful boyfriend who is on his way home today from 3 states away,a nd today is our aniversary. We never have good aniversarys, last one my dad died, so im hopeing he has a safe trip returning.... Yesterday was a fun day. I went to Chickfila, and i went to the show with lupo and pete and hung out with annalee and lupo and pete and gabe and ray and chistain and i have decided that i have an unbelievble not so tolerence for hardcore "music" i cant stand music i cant understand, i ended up sleeping in lupos car listening to death cab for cutie. But all in all it was a nice night, except for the bitchy lady at hte country coboard that wouldnt sell me a lighter so i had to use my little arm to reach into the window of mikes car at the outlet mall and unlock the door so we could raid his car of lighters and found one and left a note from the lighter bandit. But it was oh kay causwe i got a candy bar out of it all. The only thing that botherd me was the aweful sceaming that was desending from the "singers" mouth. I like seeing my friends though, but i would also like to be able to hear them. But you cant have your cake and eat it too. That doesnt make any since but what ever, why have cake if you cant eat it? oh well nevermind

(1 Stars Burn Out | Whisper to Them)